So, one of my good friends is getting married. And I have to admit that even though I'm a much less judgmental person lately, I've been a little bit judge-y when it comes to her wedding. This is her third fiance in two years. Bit hard to take it seriously. But I love her, and I'm glad she's happy. I just wish she'd slow down a little bit. Her life, not mine, and she gets to live it how she wants to. MY only job is to support her.
So imagine my fury when my mother told me that the reason her wedding was at a local campground instead of my old home church is because the pastor refused to marry them in the church.
"I hate the church." I exclaimed.
And my mother told me that I was wrong to hate the church because "people have to be allowed to stand up for their convictions."
Well, yeah. People do. Me included. And this is me, standing up for my convictions.
If your convictions value punishing sin over showing grace, that's bullshit. If you hurt my friend in the name of "standing up for your convictions," I will hate you. I will think that you have no love in your heart because you are NOT DISPLAYING LOVE. And I will think that's wrong. I will think it's bullshit. And I will have every right to say I hate the church.
Because the modern, fundamental, evangelical church? I hate them. I hate their nasty, tyrannical god whose love is always qualified by wrath. Whose mercy is always tempered by "justice" (and not the justice that requires them to take care of the poor, the widows, and the children, but the justice that leaves them foaming at the mouth for God to send everyone they disagree with to hell) rather than justice by grace and mercy.
You know what? That's the god I was taught to believe in, and I reject him wholeheartedly. Lets be clear, I don't think he exists. I believe in a God of love and mercy and JUSTICE, the type of justice that Martin Luther King Jr. hoped would roll down like waters... That's the God I believe in. That's the God I know.
But if it turns out you're right and God is like your nasty, petty, god who supports you in your "convictions" that you just use to hurt people...
I still reject your god. I'd rather go to hell than worship your god.
And I think your convictions are bullshit. And I hate your church and I hate the false god, the idol you worship.