As I’ve said, I grew up as an evangelical Christian and recently went through a crisis of faith where I very seriously considered atheism. I came through my crisis and still consider myself a Christian, though not an evangelical Christian. I’m working out what all of my beliefs are, but the core belief is set. I do believe in Jesus Christ. Sometimes, however, I’m really quite ashamed to consider myself part of the group known as Christians, mostly when people who call themselves Christians do unbelievably stupid, rude, or hateful things. Today was one of those days.
I work in a fast food restaurant. It’s not the worst job in the world, but I don’t think it’s anyone’s idea of an ideal job. Today I was cooking French fries, and the fryer is right next to the drive thru window, so I got a firsthand view of an ignorant Christian doing an ignorant thing. As they were coming through the drive thru and as they were picking up their food, they handed my friend Ken, the drive thru worker, a tract and started preaching at him, asking him if he knew Jesus or whatever Christians tend to use as their opening line when they have negative five seconds to get their point across and get someone “saved.” Ken’s a pretty good natured guy. He laughed it off, since he’s pretty firm in his pagan beliefs, and the manager made the car pull on ahead. After that, I put my head in my hands and said “sometimes, I’m ashamed to call myself a Christian.”